I have never experienced homesickness before. Ever.
I have traveled all over the world. I have stayed weeks in places. I have wanted so badly to stay and never return home… but now… now that I actually live far away ….
I’m homesick.
I’m not sure why. It could be the dreary weather and the cold. It rains and snows on and off with a few glimpses of sun. The temps aren’t even that bad. It gets into the 50’s and down into the 30’s. But no extreme lows.
It could be the grocery stores (a place I LOVE). The stress of not having a bagger and most of the time not understanding the language of the cashier. I frantically try to pull out money then proceed to bag my own items all the while the cashier has moved on and is throwing the next customers groceries towards me.
It could be the fact that I am so far away from family and friends.
Though, I admit I am a homebody. I don’t often put myself out there, I like my routine, work – gym – home. But here I have no job, I have no friends, no open gyms (dreaded home workouts) and I have only my boys (husband + 2 dogs) around me.
Don’t get me wrong – they’re great, but it would be nice to have a girlfriend to chat with over coffee or wine.
I am trying to put myself out there here. But as moving in the middle of a pandemic would have it… it’s not easy. Plus Munich is quite strict on the rules and no one here questions them – they just do as they’re told.
Very un-American. We question everything.
Language classes don’t start for me until March, and it feels so far away. And even then I believe they’ll be online at first… so no human contact.
Without a job – which I thought I would be more excited about – I don’t have a great purpose in life right now. It’s hard to be idle. I am used to go-go-going.
Weekends we try to explore what we can within our limitations. You can walk up to a castle but not into it… so many of these trips we will have to plan to do again.
So, I find myself here. In a beautiful but dreary and locked down place, and I have developed homesickness.
Nomad Nutrition 
I’m sorry girl – it’s always tough moving to a new place and getting used to things, but during Covid it must be really crap! Yes, Germans are very by-the-book and they enjoy following the rules, which is actually very nice if you also like things done the right way. Where I live in the Caribbean it upsets me every day seeing people drink and drive, drive while texting, driving up the wrong lane… all in front of police who don’t care – no one cares about rules here. No one wears their masks correctly. I would love to be in a place where people respected each other enough to follow laws. Perhaps you can see if there are any expat groups, are you able to meet just a few people? Also, maybe it’s time you write a great cookbook or something, using your education and skills! Or dedicate time each day to a new skill like German to be over prepared for your lessons. Try some new recipes! I’ve been there – not working kinda sucks, but I wish I’d used that time better… now I have no time to pursue other interests!
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